A warm "THANK YOU" to everyone who has left encouraging words in my journal. And "thank you" to everyone else who has read my journal and has said a prayer for my daughter or kept her in their thoughts. I know that alot of you have done this for her and I truly appreciate it.
Today is a MUCH better day. After work yesterday I went to the nail place across the street to get a manicure and pedicure. ( I used the gift certificate that the kids at work gave me for my birthday!) Yesterday at work Jessica (the 20 year old bartender that went to see "The View" with me) gave me the sweetest gift!! She saw how upset I was on Tuesday so she bought me a pink lion Beany Baby and a verythoughtful card. In the card she just wrote that she hoped that everything works out for us and that I should go with what's in my heart. And I did..
I went to the hospital last night to see The Big One. She's still in ICU because they can't get her blood sugars regulated enough to get her off the insulin drip (insulin thru the IV)...She has had a migraine since Monday and can't bare light. The doctors wanted to put a tube into her stomach to drain blood but she wouldn't allow them to. She said that while she was in the ER she remembers being in a wheelchair and then waking up on the floor, with nurses trying to pick her up and get her onto a stretcher. She was blacking out from a too-high blood sugar. (She seems to remember that it was over 700 when she got to the hospital..normal is 95-115.) All in all, tho, she looked 100% better than she did on Tuesday morning. I told her that I would allow her back under strict conditions. She's not so sure that she wants to come back. That's her perogative. She'll be in the hospital for a while longer so we have a bit of time to get the contract together, have her look at it and to decide if this is she can deal with it. I fnot, she will have to move.
I'm feeling better about this, probably because I feel more in control of the situation. One of my biggest problems is that I can get SOOOO overwhelmed that I cannot get my thoughts straight. Then I spiral into an abyss of fear, worry and anxiety. Not a nice place to be.
Soooo, I'm off to the shower so that I can get ready for work. I have 250 pieces of chicken coming in today (Deacon's Barbeque!!) and I'll have to schlep them all over to Church, where I hope to GOD there'senough room for me to store them!! (Last year was a nightmare..I actually had to store some chicken in the Church itself, back in the Sacristy where they prepare communion!!)
Have I mentioned how busy I'm gonna be this weekend, what with 250 chicken dinners to prepare and sell?! (I think we only pre-sold about 125 so my sales committe had better kick it up a notch!)
Have a great day everyone...and thanks for making mine a much brighter one!! :)