Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Just a few words..

Well...Jackie is sick AGAIN. Her girlfriend just picked her up and took her to the hospital. I told Jackie that she needs to make sure that they do a drug screen and I want a copy of it. I also told her that should there be ANY drugs in her system, she should speak to a social worker and have them find a rehab for her.

I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE.

I cannot go around the house and hunt down bags that she has vomitted into. I cannot clean the vomit stains from the carpets. I cannot watch as my 22 year old daughter refuses to take care of her diabetes yet has the time to party with all her friends. I cannot watch my daughter lay around on a couch just because she has the day off from work and feels that she is entitled to "just take it easy" for the day. For God's sake, you are 22 years old!! I manage to work, take care of a house (with alot of help from Herman) and 4 children, be very involved in Church and the many many other things I do in the course of a day. Please, I don't want any awards or special recognition...just please don't lay around my house when your room is a disaster area and your laundry needs to be done. DO SOMETHING! Damn it...she's only 22 years old!! Pick your damn self up and just do something. Why don't you just start at taking care of yourself?!

About 6-7 years ago, Jackie went to a psychic and the psychic told her that she was going to die at the age of 23. So, what is this? A self-fulfilling prophesy?

(Her friend just called..The ER says that her blood sugar isn't TOO bad {204}but they will probably keep her because she's vomitting. Also, according to her friend, she's been on a drinking binge this past week...something that I had no knowledge of. I do know that she has woken us up many times early in the morning when she came home, supposedly from work.)

I AM DONE.

3 comments:

donah42 said...

Sorry to hear this :( {{{{hugs}}}}

tmmiles4 said...

Hey Sista......as I've recently discovered, you can't save them, but that doesn't mean you don't love them.  You've done all you can.....these are HER choices and SHE should have to live with them NOT you and the rest of your family.  She WILL continue to do this (as I've recently learned) as long as you "let" her.  By letting her, I mean letting her stay in your house and upset your family.  It's time she goes out into the real world with no support if this is the way SHE CHOOSES to live her life.  You know I love you and I'm here for you............

brimasta1 said...

I know how hard that can be. Just keep doing what you can. Thats all you can do.