Just a few words..

Well...Jackie is sick AGAIN. Her girlfriend just picked her up and took her to the hospital. I told Jackie that she needs to make sure that they do a drug screen and I want a copy of it. I also told her that should there be ANY drugs in her system, she should speak to a social worker and have them find a rehab for her.

I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE.

I cannot go around the house and hunt down bags that she has vomitted into. I cannot clean the vomit stains from the carpets. I cannot watch as my 22 year old daughter refuses to take care of her diabetes yet has the time to party with all her friends. I cannot watch my daughter lay around on a couch just because she has the day off from work and feels that she is entitled to "just take it easy" for the day. For God's sake, you are 22 years old!! I manage to work, take care of a house (with alot of help from Herman) and 4 children, be very involved in Church and the many many other things I do in the course of a day. Please, I don't want any awards or special recognition...just please don't lay around my house when your room is a disaster area and your laundry needs to be done. DO SOMETHING! Damn it...she's only 22 years old!! Pick your damn self up and just do something. Why don't you just start at taking care of yourself?!

About 6-7 years ago, Jackie went to a psychic and the psychic told her that she was going to die at the age of 23. So, what is this? A self-fulfilling prophesy?

(Her friend just called..The ER says that her blood sugar isn't TOO bad {204}but they will probably keep her because she's vomitting. Also, according to her friend, she's been on a drinking binge this past week...something that I had no knowledge of. I do know that she has woken us up many times early in the morning when she came home, supposedly from work.)

I AM DONE.

Going on hiatus..maybe for good...

Not finding much to write about these days, I've decided to stop journaling for the moment, possibly for good. I have a daughter ("Boo") who likes to read my journal so it prevents me from sharing everything I'd like to.

I've decided that I'll write when I want to or when I have something to share and to not pressure myself into making a post..

I will be reading everyone's journals and occasionally commenting..

..til then, Peace!

Labor Day Weekend..

Well....another summer here and gone..Kind of sad but yet, kind of refreshing! Kids go back to school in the morning..7am is the rising time in this house (ONLY during school, tho!)..Herman and I have had a wonderful summer together..what, whith the youngest being 13 years old....we were ALWAYS alone!!

I start my 8am til 4pm shift next week...thought I'd savor "sleeping in" for just 1 more week..Herman is off this week (Lucky bastard!) so we;ll have Wednesday together! Yippeeeee! I wish that amusement parks stayed open the week that kids went back to school so that parents could enjoy the park sans children! Ahhhh! To be in Dorney Park without a million screaming children! No lines, no screaming..pure fun!! Well...maybe we'll do something, even if it just turns out to be breakfast at the diner!

Had a barbeque this evening, family (mine) only. My family wouldn't care much for our friends so we decided to spare them..(our friends, that is! LOL) Shall we review the menu?! OK: Appetizers were your basic "chips 'n dip"...tortilla chips with a taco- seasoned sour cream  and salsa plus potato chips with onion dip...nothing extravagant; Hamburgers and Boar's Head hot dogs, pretty yummy if you ask me!; Herman's famous barbequed ribs!! Mmm-mmm! We passed on the flank steak this evening...just too DAMN much food! For dessert my mom brought over fresh baked brownies and Sara Lee's chocolate-dipped cheesecake squares! ( Oh yeah, throw in some shrimp on the barbie, pickles and home-made potato salad {Mom's} and let's call it a party!!)

All in all, it was a success. I had not seen my sister since she came back from CA so it was good to see them, especially my 8 year old nephew. We had a few good laughs and reminisced, which is always fun...

The kids are sort of glad to go back to school this year..Please, dear God..I pray that this year is a realllllly good one for my children! I have to have The Boy evaluated for ADD or ADHD this year as his concentration skills are NOT where they should be.."Boo" is back on her ADD medication so I believe she'll be ok this year. The child that I think "might" have it hardest is Ray because her boyfriend graduated in June so she's without him this year. I think she'll pull thru, tho...she's an A/B student so I can tell if she's having problems if her grades slip..

Hmmmm...any ideas re: what Herman and I should do on our day together on Wednesday?!

In the meantime...a very close friend of mine (who shall remain nameless) has been on my mind alot lately. Things aren't going her way and she's anticipating making MAJOR life changes..(Love ya, miss ya!)

Ok...I hear my dear sweet Herman walking around looking for me so I should go for now...Dar has actually recommended that I give up this journal because I don't update as much as I should and she gets frustrated...Ohhhh..she got pretty punded by Hurricane (by the time it got to them it was a tropical storm, tho) Frances...When I spoke to her the other day they were experiencing 55- 65 mph winds!! (Gusts, not steady winds)..Damn!

I'm rambling..gotta go..Take care and peace!

(OH! Check out this website re: The Pentagon attack on 9/11...I found it fascinating! {I'd like to thank Dar for the following link..}

The 9/11 Pentagon Attack...What REALLY happened?!

I'd appreciate ANYONE'S input as to the validity of this question...make's you go "Hmmmmm..."

Sorry...

Sorry..haven't felt much like journaling lately..life has been getting in the way!

Had a CAT scan of my abdomen and pelvis yesterday..no results yet. In the mean time, I still have the pain and discomfort from whatever the hell this is..

Not much to report so I guess I'll pimp some journals..

Need some male insight? Well...it's only a click away! Remo has one of the funniest damn journals around! (Caution: this journal is full of adult content and it MAY make you pee yourself! WEAR DEPENDS!!)

If you're looking for some female perspectives, well hop on over here! This is a GREAT journal, full of the wisdom of 3 terrific women journalers here in J-land! (And they even have male guest writers sometimes!)

As you know, Amy The Hippie is always one of my favorites! She's into astrological potpourri right now..She never fails to either crack me up or make me think..

Looking for a great story? This chick has some of the best stories around! And don't call her "Deb"...it's Deborah to you!

Jeff over at "What the Hell?" always has a story to share...and he's in love with Annalisa over at Simple Yet Satisfying...

Can't forget good ol' Gordy...go over and give him a big ol' hug, wontcha?!

Looking for some homespun stories from a sensitive and wonderful man? Go visit John at Losing It..He tells great stories about his nephew Bubba..nice pics, too!

Looking for some heartwarming stories about love and teaching? Ms. Hillaree Day has some wonderful stories to share about her life...and she's in love, too! She'll make you cheer "Brava!!"

Ok..I'll pimp some more journals at a later date..but for now these should keep you plenty busy!

G'night and peace!

This and that...

Been on vacation all week long..Went back to Dorney Park with all 4 children and a friend..Had a blast! Went to Pt. Pleasant one night and walked the boardwalk...nice night...Celebrated Herman's 45th birthday yesterday!! He and I went to The Lobster Shanty in Point Pleasant last night..disappointing. My steamers (clams) were soooo sandy and had an awful stench to them. I had to send them back. They are also overpriced as far as lobsters go. Herman had a 2 pound lobster dinner that cost us $36!! (The portuguese places we normally frequent usually have twin lobster specials for less that $25) All in all it was nice night..the kids were all away for the night. (This was not an accident...we threw them all out! LOL!!)

Had an abdominal ultrasound two weeks ago for the pain that I have had for a month. According to my primary doctor, it came back "esentially fine" but as to why the pain still persists, no answers...So I headed off to the gastroenterologist on Thursday morning. He is concerned that something is going on (I have severe reflux which has resulted in a pre-cancerous condition of the esophagus, Barrett's Esophagus..yuck..) so he wants me to have a CAT scan. He thinks that it may be my gallbladder. All I know is that I have had a pain in my upper right side for 5 weeks now with no relief. Thankfully, this doctor WILL get to the bottom of it.

I heard from Lila!! She's doing well and wants me to tell everyone that she says "HI!!" and hopes that all is well with everyone. She likes her new job. Shane (her son) is doing well...I'll be writing back to her soon..

We're supposed to have a party tomorrow but it doesn't appear that the weather is going to cooperate. May have to postpone to Sunday or next weekend..It's going to be mostly Herman's gym friends so it should be a wild party!! LOL!

Dar and her family evacuated for Hurricane Charley but went back home when it turned east and headed a bit south and east of her. I don't think they even got rain from the hurricane! Lucky, lucky break for them...

Well..that's it for now..have tons of laundry to do and then I need to address the needs of the house! LOL!

Peace, everyone!!

 

"I am a gay American"- NJ Gov. McGreevey

Bravo, Governor!

"I AM A GAY AMERICAN"

I'm so proud to have my Governor come out of the closet and to proudly announce that he is gay!

Bad, bad blogger!!

Sorry...it''s been a long time. Let's play catch up, shall we?

Boo came home this past Monday. Her flight (into Newark) was delayed by 1 1/2 hours. Of course, this was the day after the terror alert went up for NYC, Newark and DC. So, she wasn't too thrilled to be flying that day. She had a good time with Dar and the boys, hanging out and going to the beach.

I was supposed to do the paranormal research training thing last Friday but I haven't been feeling well. Stomach problems that may be gallbladder problem. I'm having an abdominal ultraound on Monday morning. In the meantime, I've been rather uncomfortable and not much fun. :(

Jackie is thinking of moving out into an apartment with her friend Dana. (Let's see...how many ways are there to say HIP HIP HOORAY??) We'll see. She is seriously delusional in thinking that she'll be able to support herself. But...hey! GO! :::picking colors for my office (her bedroom) as I type this:::

The Boy has had band practice every day. They're sounding great! He plays the electric guitar and sings (warbles)..He has the whole "rock star" attitude and look, to boot! :::picking out my new mansion online for when he becomes rich:::

Ray has been out with Bryan every day. They're so cute together. She's going to come to work with me for a few hours next weeek. I'm going to have her pull files for me. It gets too confusing when I have to do that and answer the phone at the same time. Keith (my boss) gave me the go-ahead to hire her to help me out for a bit. (I have a $100 limit, tho.)

Work has been good. I more than likely have sold a new ice machine to a local college. This results in a $150 reward! Woo-hoo! Making the "big bucks" now! LOL!!

Herman is doing well. He has to judge the WNPF World's meet tomorrow. He's not looking forward to it. How'd you like to have to tell a 300+ pound guy that his lift was no good?! Didn't think so... Hopefully Wayne and Brenda will go to watch tomorrow. Don't wanna have to sit around there all day by myself.

Boo has made friends with Mark's (of Mark and Heather fame) cousin Monica. She's a year older than Boo. They're both being trained at the gym by Heather, who is currently in training for the nationals body building event to be held in Dallas in November. Boo is leaving for the Poconos today with Monica and her family. She'll have a blast!

Well...Herman is back from the gym so I guess I'd better go motivate him to clean out the shed for Monday's metal garbage pick up. Ugh. So much to put out by the curb. Then food shopping. Fun, fun, fun..

Peace!